| Friday, July 29th, 2011 |
| 3:50 pm |
year update
so where am i now ? 33 single. a distinct lack of self improvement in the last 4 years. its almost like a love coma . why do i live my lovers life. as if mine is less important. no more ! ever again I swear ! as for the girl who gave me my sparkle back tali. over the last 4 years I,ve been dumped 4 times cheated of more than that and the sparkle is dead. the chemistry is still there, but I cannot allow myself to love someone who lies like that and who will fuck anybody who smiles at her twice. who am i ? i am unstopaBOBle a force of nature as uncontrollable as the wind, as strong as a mountain ,and as deep as the ocean where am i ? im old enough to understand the effect I have on the world and its effect on me and in knowing this i shape my reality . at the beginning of a new chapter why do i feel this way ? i feel this way because ive not been living enough .and i have lived in the embers of love for too long .onece a blaze. but now barely warm enough to keep me alive and warm to do learn something new and important every day bring awesome fun to every moment possible indulge my eccentric amusing whims reach out with my personality and meet new and interesting people as often as possible dance more |
| Sunday, May 24th, 2009 |
| 3:45 pm |
destroyed
today tali and i agreed to spend some time apart as i anoy her and drive her crazy .i hope its just an aprecieation break. ive never cried untill i was sick before . ive foolishly made her my life what will i do when she is gone |
| Thursday, January 1st, 2009 |
| 3:23 am |
2008
i left the comfy easy job i had for 11 years and packed ny belongings and moved to london and a new job . it was scary as hell.developed all new work skills quite rapidly good to know i can still learn new tricks . terribly missing saturday nights out and seeing all my friends . but its good to cut down on the booz and all the other things i used to do. and on dec 23 i stopped smokeing as it occoured to me ive been smokeing as long as my girlfriend has been alive. so over half my life so far ive been copeing it does not require will power. you just have to want not be a smoker 2009 a new training montage continues. im sure im gonna rant about how much the exsorsize hurts but what i have acheved in 2008 has showed me that anything is possible if i want it enough i am an unstopaBOBle force for change for the better Current Mood:  energetic |
| 3:17 am |
bye bye 4 years no claims
i ended 2008 by crashing my car its not serious but my no claims are now gone. london trafic sucks : ( i got lots of nice presents and spent lots of time with tali 13 months on and all kinds of hurdels overcome. i still love her every bit as much if not more . Current Mood:  chipper |
| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008 |
| 6:50 am |
giving up cigarets again
looking back at the last time i gave up fags in my journal .i was so upset lonely and emo . im hopeing i dont do that again and if i do someone slap me .ive not smoked weed in such a long time now and i dont miss it . now fags are next on my list of things i dont need in my life . and im starting running again after the 2 hour coughing fit i had last time i tried to run . unfit bob is unexceptable and must be destroyed with excercize . got a sh__y xmas prezy from work a conjestion fine of 60 and a 35 admin fee give us 95pounds merry christmass. had my first drinking binge in months and killed 3/4 of a bottle of jd behaved like a twat and snored all night . feel manly again and a little in the doghouse stil was good to have a passionate reunion wit JD Current Mood: chipper |
| Thursday, December 11th, 2008 |
| 5:40 am |
so cold now
i hate winter rushing from one building to another. trying not to get to wet or cold on the way . ive had a relaxing holiday. not done much went to northampton to see old friends, breifly . i very much enjoyed caching up with H on the phone miss you most. as recently i understand you more than i have ever done. ive been spending lots of time with tali whome and which i love, and have grown closer through our adventures. its been over a year since my last post but ive been so preocupide with love and life. i had forgotten about me . now ive remembered me il try not to forget . not a very long post concidering how long its been . im sure il remember more later Current Mood: loved |
| Friday, November 9th, 2007 |
| 12:03 am |
found it
found one recharged super bright bob sparkle. discoverd it outside having a ciggy at slimes . a devil disgised as an angel gave it back to me . and for that i am eternally great full Current Mood: ecstatic |
| 12:03 am |
found it
found one recharged super bright bob sparkle. descoverd it outside havilg a ciggy at slimes . a devil dusgised as an angel gave it back to me . and for that i am eternaly greatfull Current Mood: ecstatic |
| Monday, October 22nd, 2007 |
| 10:19 pm |
rubbish weekend
friday night was rubbish was in bed by one left the club early due to bordom. saturday went to my local goth night and once again dull no sparkle . reguardless of how much i drank/ did. there was no happiness at all. the only time i smiled on sunday was wen i spoke to charlii . and that was because she reminded me of considerably better times . wen i had someone to make happy ...LOST ONE TATTERD SPARKLE last seen some time ago wen i had butterflies. if found please return Current Mood:  cold |
| Saturday, October 20th, 2007 |
| 1:15 am |
DESCRIBE YOURSELF IN THREE WORDS: 1. adventurous 2. open 3. careing THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. hands 2. head shape 3. calfs THREE THINGS YOU'D CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. taller 2. thiner 3. younger THREE NICKNAMES YOU HAVE: 1. bob 2. bobbles 3. el bob THREE THINGS YOU DID IN THE PAST WEEK: 1. went to irland 2. drank gunniss 3. watched the sun come up in gallway THREE THINGS YOU'LL DO TODAY: 1. live 2. talk 3. party THREE THINGS ON YOUR MIND: 1. careah 2. money 3. fitness ~RELATIONSHIPS~ DESCRIBE YOUR BOYFRIEND / GIRLFRIEND IN THREE WORDS: 1. na 2. na 3. na DESCRIBE YOUR EX IN THREE WORDS: 1. vibrant 2. adorable 3. incompatable THREE PHYSICAL THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX: 1. attitude 2. eyes 3. smile THREE LONGEST RELATIONSHIPS: 1. vicky 2. helin 3. charlii THREE CELEBRITY CRUSHES: 1. kelly labrock 2. bianka buchamp 3. drucilla THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 1. love 2. laughter 3. passion LAST THREE PEOPLE YOU KISSED: 1. random barmade 2. mel 3. pass ~FRIENDS~ THREE CLOSE FRIENDS OF THE SAME SEX: rich keir ed THREE CLOSE FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: helen preeti sally THREE FRIENDS YOU'VE KNOWN THE LONGEST: 1. chris 2. was 3. keir THREE THINGS YOUR FRIENDS HAVE IN COMMON: 1. imaginaton 2. booz 3. consiousness THREE THINGS YOU DO WITH YOUR FRIENDS: party party party THREE FRIENDS YOU MISS RIGHT NOW: 1. sally 2. alice 3. ruth ~RANDOM~ THREE THINGS YOU CAN TOUCH WITH YOUR RIGHT HAND RIGHT NOW: 1. knife 2. ashtray 3. ipod THREE THINGS YOU'D TAKE TO A DESERT ISLAND WITH YOU: 1. ipod 2. brunet nympho 3. boat THREE BANDS YOU'VE LISTENED TO RECENTLY: 1. blutangle 2.4 strings 3. tomcraft THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1 fall in love again 2.move somwhere hot 3.be crazy uncle bob for my sisters kids THREE WORDS THAT FIRST COME INTO YOUR HEAD: 1. beansprouts 2. roundtable (been sednign alot of emails relating to them today!) 3. ogg THREE EMOTIONS YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW: 1. cold 2. dorde 3. dissapointed THREE THINGS THAT GET YOU INTO TROUBLE: 1. lateness 2. drink 3. being missunderstood |
| Monday, October 1st, 2007 |
| 12:59 pm |
misunderstood
wen i explane what im about. and why i do things people still do not beleve my motives. so the best way to not be misunderstood is not to comunicate. because people will think what they like reguardless of explaneing motives. meh on a better note used my leg weights today... easy peasy go me yay . my training montage continues mood = praying for a miracle and waiting for my life to start |
| Thursday, September 27th, 2007 |
| 12:38 pm |
I WAS ROBED
any idea how annoying it is wen you get told that you were prime candidate for your dream job . but nobody will fill the position as there isnt the work at the moment.... FUCKING TOSSERS ..that job was mine mine mine.. ive been waiting 8 years for this job to come up Current Mood:  infuriated |
| Tuesday, September 25th, 2007 |
| 7:05 pm |
still all rubbish
the only thing possitive i can think of right now is that it cannot rain all the time . tomorow i find out if ive got my dream job ... but dont hold much hope . this summer has bought no love for me. so still i live in the solitude ive come to except. even tho while out clubing with meny friends. i always walk home alone. wen is it my turn to be happy . im sure i deserve it . lots of nothing good god knows why i bother with this Current Mood: angry |
| Wednesday, June 20th, 2007 |
| 10:55 pm |
its all rubbish
its been hell month .. lost my phone and 50 percent of numbers . lost battery drill at work .got verbal warning for it . perchased road tax i didnt need . had expencive mot . need less to say of late it has been pretty shit of late for me .......but for people i love its been wonderfull . my sister got married i gave her away, twas a lovly day. my friends robb and pinky had a wonderfull pagan wedding. my mate ed gets married this saturday Current Mood: recumbent |
| Thursday, April 26th, 2007 |
| 9:47 am |
northampton highlander
keir foolishly thought that rich was stonned so did not take a sword to the shop with him rich took keirs head about...remaining highlanders are ronnie arun gemma and rich me thinks it will be all over by sunday and it was ronnie and arun were beheaded at the george pub in willby in the beer garden tho gemma has gone into hideing so |
| Friday, April 20th, 2007 |
| 12:35 pm |
northampton highlander
while bob loaded his toolkit into his car to go to work the evil keir .sneeked up behind him and took his head |
| Wednesday, April 18th, 2007 |
| 12:40 am |
northampton highlander
first kill to bob .. scot was beheaded while loading his car. after i staked out his house for 2 hours. ooooooh so evil . more updates as they die Current Mood: accomplished |
| Monday, March 12th, 2007 |
| 1:05 pm |
TG was ace
| You Are 96% Evil | 
You're the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you! |
.....ah yeh still got it im so gonna be the devils replacement ; ) Current Mood: happy |
| Thursday, February 8th, 2007 |
| 7:15 pm |
life
do ya ever feel befuzzled. wen ya worlds all kinda muddled. and ya life is kinda puzzled. and the goings sorta slow....wen its all kinda hazy .and ya feelin sorta lazy .but the rush and push is crazy. but theres nowhere left to go. ya know ....inspired by sh-I-t Current Mood: cranky |
| Sunday, January 7th, 2007 |
| 5:32 pm |
On the twelfth day of Christmas,  roachbin sent to me... Twelve twisted_crows drumming Eleven deprimidos piping Ten jame0s a-leaping Nine slinky_cats dancing Eight life_incs a-milking Seven silverr0b0tgirls a-pierceing Six brokenaideens a-juggling Five pre-e-e-eachermuaddibs Four the_reaper_666s Three deadvisions Two theorys ...and an ebm in a world_of_skin. |
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